I've been tagged!

From  cuteypie Diandra @ The shrinking spell
Rules:
1. post these rules.
2. you must post 11 random things about yourself.
3. answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post.
4. create 11 new questions for the people you tag to answer.
5. go to their blog and tell them that you've tagged them.
6. no stuff in the tagging section about ‘you are tagged if you are reading this.’ blah blah blah, you legitimately have to tag 11 people!

Random things about me:
1. I love pink and glitter. both at the same time preferably.
2. I tried writing erotica. I gave up. I may try again.
3. I've lost almost 60 pounds!
4. I have Ankylosing spondylitis and I was told I couldn't run. Well. I am! alot! and I feel great!!
5. I have a "witchy box" filled with spells, herbs, charms..etc sitting on my craft table :)
6. I love to "stalk" blogs. I love reading about others' lives and learning new ideas. I don't always comment or reply to comments, but I do read them!
7. I'm addicted to yoga. I love it! I go twice a week now, but hope to get more in!
8. I think my hubs is the sexiest person I know. I love his confidence, his personality (most times), he is a great father.
9. I hoard books. I don't always read them. In fact I have many, many, books that I haven't even opened. I just had to buy them.
10. I am addicted to diet soda. I need to change this. asap.
11. I have a.d.d. which, if you've read any of my blogs.. yep. I have three.. you will notice.. I don't follow through with things well. lol.

I answered:
My 11 random questions for you:
1. What was you favorite stuffed toy as a kid? Do you still have it? probably something do to with smurfs.. I really don't remember..
2. Which one do you prefer - typing or writing on paper? typing. I have horrible handwriting
3. Do you follow the news? What was the most recent piece that stuck with you? not really. I always miss it. the most recent was about six local police officers that got shot serving a warrant. One passed away. it was all pretty sad.
4. What was your biggest cooking/baking disaster? um. all of them? J/k. I don't really try hard things.. so not much to mess up :)
5. Which is your favorite animal and why? horses. They are so magical and majestic. I have always loved them.
6. Do you like shopping? Why (not)? YES! and no. I wish I had more money for it!
7. Which person in your family is closest to your heart? My youngest daughter. She is most like me and has the biggest heart.
8. Are you a cat person or a dog person? Or do you prefer any other pet? both. I have both and a bunny.
9. Is there a crime you would commit if you thought you'd get away with it? hmm.. rob a bank maybe.
10. High heels or boots? Why? high heeled boots! lol. they make your legs look longer and sexy
11. What do you keep on your desk?  my diet dr pepper.. some fruit. my radio and tons of vitamins. oh and pics of my kidlings


mkay.. here are your questions..

1. if you could meet anyone, living or passed, who would it be
2. and why to #1 (see how I got two outta that one?)
3. workouts at gym or at home?
4. what is your goal for the new year
5. favorite color
6. ever had your fortune, tarot, or aura read?
7. if you could buy any kind of car, truck,suv.. which one would it be?
8. what is the first thing that made you smile today?
9. how often do you shave your legs?
10. do you color your hair? and if so.. what's your natural color?
11. what are you thinking about right now?

so.. I'm off to tag!

getting back on track

Literally!

I went to the rec center last night to do something.. whatever my coughing butt would allow..
and allllll the frekin machines were FULL!
it was sooo busy last night..
weird.
maybe everyone is getting a start on the Holiday workouts to prevent the gains?

so I hit the track
it is 1/9th of a mile...
I jogged 9 times

took a drink.. checked my timer
10.15
seriously?
woot!

I hit it again
mile 3 was 30.45!
I totally rocked it!!
had to stop for a cough attack and a drink

kept going
made it to mile 5.. that was 45 times around the track!! 50.15!!!

then I had to stop.
had to catch my breath.

but I felt goooood people! seriously good!
I just jogged 5 miles!
ok. not nonstop.
but I still did it!

I had a visit with my new dr yesterday too..
she is darling!
she has the cutest lil accent. I had to ask her where she was from.
Her family is from Ireland. She grew up in Zimbabwe. Talk about awesome!
she pretty much confirmed the PCOS diagnosis. She asked if I wanted to ask my ob about it.. I said I felt more comfortable with her.. since she has all my info from forever...
she started me on Metformin and Spironolactone.
also.. cut my blood pressure meds in half!
woohoo!

so.. lets see if this helps me lose the belly fat and get back on the right track.
cuz between me and you.. I am tired of shaving my facial hair like a man!
eek.. I said that out loud huh?
now you know my secret.

Have a great day!

a quickie

I'm going to a new yoga class..
it's tai-chi yoga..
I am soooo excited..
and better yet..
I'm bringing three teenagers with me!
they love coming to yoga with me..

I am feeling bloated and icky this last week..
not sure why..
maybe too many veggies making me "gassy"?

this saturday I am doing the Breast Cancer walk that is supposed to be huge here.. of course.. I signed my girls up too.. good thing it's just a walk.. my little one barely made it through her 5k for school lol

then.. next Sunday..
get this!
We are all dressing up like Zombies and I am running an Undead 5k and they are walking an Undead mile!
how sweet is that!

I will of course, take lots of pics!

I am not giving up people!
my food tracking and my body may not be cooperating.. but I will not stop!

I also have to share a lil moment I had with the hubsters..
he told me he was kind of getting nervous about me losing all this weight..
that I am becoming "hot" again and that makes him somewhat scared I am going to, idk.. leave him..
well..
so not true!
I told him, honestly, that I am doing this for ME!
and that is so true..
so
yep.
I said it out loud.
I am doing this for ME!

a Late Award

Thanks to Lisa.. (sorry.. I've been a bit behind on things)
I'm finally able to post this award she gave me!
yay! I love prizes!!!

The rules are as follows;
Thank the blogger who gave the award to you,
Tell 7 things about yourself
Pass the award on (to 15 people)


Thanks Lisa!! her blog
1. I am deathly afraid of spiders.. Like.. I can't even be in the same room..freakishly, spazing out kinda afraid of em..
*shivers just thinking about the creepy crawly buggers*
2. I am addicted to exercise. and damn proud of it. being told I can't for years.. finally got old.. so I did.. and I do exercise most days of the week. sometimes twice :)
3. I love to craft. I make things. and have even been published in an online scrapbook magazine :) you can check out my craft blog here, only if ya want ta
4. I would give anything to be able to dance again. Just because I loved it so much in high school. But there aren't many classes around for overweight, 30 sumthing, mommies..
5. seven? really?
mkay.. I'm a writer. kinda. I'm trying anyways..
6. I love my girls with every cell in my body. I would do anything for the little shits. but I guess any mom would say that..
7. my fav color is pink. of course. but I also have a dark, twisted side. skulls, black.. glitter.. I'm well rounded that way.

Idk if I know 15 peeps..
but here goes..
Kirsten cuz she's my evil bewbie twin or sumpin. and she just rocks
jack he totally rocks
lil miss hippo  well.. cuz I can totally see a hippo wearing a headband
mizfit kinda needs no explanation.. she is amazing
pior fat girl can I count this as my last 11 peeps?

k I'm done..
thanks bloggers! you rock!

I have to love myself

That is the main point I have been struggling with.
I allowed myself to gain at least 100 pounds since high school. Ok that was 15ish years ago, but still..
it crept up on my fat ass..
Mostly I am blaming kidlet number one. The dr told me to eat. So I did.
I was 18. I was 100 pounds.
What did I care?

Oh man, if I could go back and re-do all that damage I did to myself back then.
You bet your ass I would.
In a heartbeat.

Ok.. so since then..
kidlet number two managed to make me eat more. totally her fault too :)

So I was over 200 pounds last year. Gross I know! I seriously felt (still kinda do) like an oompa loompa
Not cute.

I have lost 35 pounds since then, but I still have body issues.
The ginormous mirrors in the fitness class room doesn't help either.
I can see all the fit, cute little teeny boppers or trophy mom's sweating it up next to me. I feel bad.
I feel like my belly fat is going to consume me.
Literally.

I get comments all the time.. "are you losing weight?"  "you look great" blah blah..
It feels so good at the time. I smile. I bounce down the hall. and by the time I get back to my seat or where I was going.. The good feeling is gone.

My hubby even says he is starting to notice I am looking better.
I still feel like the 215 pound woman on the inside.
When does this stop?

I am making my goal this year to lose at least another 35 pounds, but I will still be overweight. In all reality I need to lose 50+ more.
That is depressing.
So depressing.

Weight Watchers is helping.
A ton!
I just have to remember to love myself. I am worth all this effort.

And thanks to Sally's awesome post I will probably never eat KFC again.. Not that I loved it in the first place.. My fav was the coleslaw and mashed potatoes.. but still ACK!! lol

It is a long hard journey to lose weight. I know I didn't put it on overnight. But I am not the most patient person in the world. I want it gone NOW!

:)
Have a great day!!