Back on track

Kinda.

I have lost a few pounds. School makes it super hard to make healthy choices, but I am working on it.
Time for the gym is a struggle but I have made it there a few times. Not as much as I wish, but I will still keep going.
I did get a fitbit. got the Charge. It tracks my steps, sleep and more. Very awesome!
I have not been able to get my 10,000 steps every day though and that is sad. Guess I will have to do rounds around my house every night just to get there. Whatever works, right?
My new years resolution, as always, was to lose weight. And to stick with it.  I am going to try to get my steps, my water (72 ounces a day) and the 21 day fix (on my own and vegetarian style of course).. I am going to research and plan and write everything I do down. Here.
So, there will be more posts from me, to keep me on track. I have to do it.
Just have to.

Failing again

I've failed you.
again.

I forgot to update the challenge..

I am soooo sorry!

if anyone is still around..
I would love to keep going..
maybe?

I resisted pizza last night.. opted for a salad. and it was goood..
I felt so much better about myself after that..

so.
Monday.
let's go!

no more goofing around.

it's serious time!

I need to think about why I want to eat crap.
I know it is not good for me.
not at all.
so.
why do I do it?
I know I have no willpower. but why?
I am going to really dig deep inside myself this week and ask myself why I do what I do?
I know "real food" is better for my body.
so what's up with mindlessly eating junk?

my goals (yep there are two)
this week:
no junk.
none.
not even on Thanksgiving.
I need to break the cycle. and cold turkey (ha) will have to do. (I don't eat turkey lol)

and I am going to find the reason inside that I think that cookie or candy bar will make me feel better. It never does. It never tastes as good as I think it will.
so why bother?
why beat myself up over it, when I don't have to.

yes, it will be a bad week to start eating "real food" and by this, I mean.. as little processed food as possible. as little sugar and fake ingredients as possible. I know it won't be possible to do this 100% but as close as I can get, will make me happy. and my body happy.
I know this.

so.. if you are still along for the challenge..
you can pick one or both..
if neither of these make you comfortable.. you can pick you own hurdle to overcome :)
I'm easy like that!

have a great week!

Eating clean

that's my goal this week.
to eat as "clean" as possible.
I am still working on getting back on track.
I have "excuses".
no money to buy more "healthy food"
no time to prepare healthy meals
no time to get to the gym
blah blah blah

so last night..
I chopped veggies and bagged them so I can grab a bag and go
I made salsa to go with my veggies, or eggs, or whatever I love homemade salsa! mmm
this means no fattening dip! :)

I spooned out tablespoon portions of almond butter to go with veggies
I hard boiled eggs for the week, so much easier to grab and go when they are already in a bowl ready to go.

I visited the farmers market last week and got tons of tomatoes, green beans, squash and zucchini. mmmm
I love to just cut a tomato and eat it.

I have been looking for recipes for the zucchini and squash.. but so far have only used them in my egg cups. I put an egg, some grated squash and zucchini and some green pepper in muffin tins and baked them for a bit. they popped out so yummy!! I also have those for breakfast so I don't have to worry about grabbing junk.

I think I am off to a great start. I only hope I can stick with it again. lol
I have gained at least five pounds since falling off the "no grain/carb" train. I feel like shit! seriously. shit.

I have learned my body does not like grains, or carbs, or whatever is in bread, pasta etc.. it may have to do with my many "excuses" for not previously exercising or eating right.. like Ankylosing spondylitis.. or Fibromyalgia, or Irritable bowl disease. or migraines.. or pinched nerves in my neck and back (which by the way are now causing leg issues) yay.
anyways...

no more excuses.
I have found what actually works for me. And makes me feel good inside. and out.
I am going to remember the bloating and icky feeling every time I want a "treat" that isn't so good for me.

I am going to get back to the gym. get my WOD on !


My father in law has been in and out of the hospital the last couple months. he is a sick guy.
he is a disabled veteran. has M.S. COPD, and now seizures. sometime last week or so.. he broke five ribs. he is just such a positive guy. the nurses in the icu love him. seriously, one asked if she could take him home and care for him. lol.
 but all his health issues have finally made my hubs start thinking about his health. whew! finally! I have been begging him to stop smoking for years.. and now. he is!! ok. cutting waaaaay back and using an electronic cigg.. but yay!!!! I'll take it :)

anyone want to see a bunch of teenage girls?

drill teams from all over came to perform at a major league soccer game Saturday. they practiced for about 10 hours. Super long day for everyone

 they said they had over 700 girls there!

 our team is the teeny one in the far back left lol

 my teenager! she had so much fun!!

have a great week!

Goals

If anyone would have told me even a few years ago I would have ran a half marathon, I would have told them they were crazy!
whacked out, nut jobbed, insanely insane, nuts!
but I did it.

I ran a 5k.
then another
and another.. and on and on..
then a 10k
go me!

then.. I wanted MORE
I really did.
I had to prove to myself I could do more.
I had to prove to everyone telling me I can't, that I CAN!
and I did!
I ran a half marathon..

what's next?
more half's
getting faster
and being able to complete one without thinking I'm going to die. or puke. either one

but
baby steps
first
I have to get back on my "healthy eating" plan
no(low) carbs
no junk
lots of water
more water
and did I mention water?

my brilliant mind thought, earlier, while I was in the bathroom. I think great there.

I need to cut back on the diet soda.
BIG TIME!
now!
I know it's not good for me.
I'm addicted.
my goal for this week?
cut back on the soda.
I will ALLOW myself one per day. and only if it's a good fountain drink. mmm those are my favs.
yep. I did not say NO soda.. cut me some slack people.
I'm an addict.
but I will cut back.
baby steps here.

I will also try a new recipe at least once a week. and post it. here. with pictures. cuz I'm awesome like that.

Oh yeah! I am also going to try more strength training. such as crossfit, p90X or insanity. not sure which yet.. I tried crossfit on my own, but without paying a few hundred dollars to go to the gym here, I'm not sure I'm comfortable to keep trying the exercises..
so. a buddy is doing insanity and he has had great results. I think I'll research that one.
either way. I'll get toned and strong.

aaand... I need to update my blog to make it look cooler. yanno. to match me? someday. when I don't have a million things to do at any given time. I'll do that. yeah.


I just wanted to share some progress pics.. the first is from 2007ish I'm on the very right.. with my sister and nieces just after my mama passed.

taa-daa!
I've still got thirtyish pounds to go.. but I'm close!


I keep thinking of fantabulous things to share!
we are going to (as a whoooole family) do a deep clean of our house tomorrow. scrubbing walls and floors, cleaning out closets..etc.. I'm excited now, but come tomorrow morning, eeek! lol
then.. I plan on crafting and get this~~~ making a recipe box! I am going to find all the yummyness I've found in books from the library, pinterest and blogland.
 I know I won't complete this soon, but I will start it!
I plan on dividing it somehow.. paleo, vegetarian, low cal, not low cal.. etc.. whew! that's gonna be a buttload of work. maybe it's not so exciting after all?
Oh yeah.. and get my fill of Olympic games in! woot woot! go USA!
naaah. It's gonna rock!

nummy breakfast

I started the Jamie Eason's Livefit plan I found on bodybuilding.com today:

isn't she darling?

I just had to take a pic of my yummy and healthy breakfast!

today..

breakfast (4 ww's p+)
half a flat bread
egg whites
slice of avacado
two pieces of "soy bacon"

it was actually pretty good and I'm not starving yet :)


snack (3 ww's p+)
cream of wheat
banana

lunch (5 ww's P+)
cottage cheese
salad
green beans

snack (6 ww's p+)
protein shake

dinner.. to be determined (5 ww's P+)
after dinner snack.. something yummy I'm sure (a few ww's p+)


the plan is eat every three or so hours.. small.. HEALTHY meals.. hit weight training hard and voila! 12 weeks, I'll be hawt!  aaaannnddd... It goes pretty well with Weight Watchers.. lots of power foods.. I am staying within my points plus limit.. woohoo!

it seems pretty simple and doable for me...
I will try to post plans and updates more than before. I really want this to work!

baack! after a long ass weekend!

I would love to say I did great on my Weight Watcher's weigh in.
but nope.
I'm up a pound and a half!

can I tell ya how frustruating this is?
I did everything I was supposed to.. all week..
I even ate perfectly on Thxgiving..
I ran a 10k for craps sakes!
oh yeah..
 I ran a 10k! In 1:07..
not too bad for a fat chick, eh?

but I don't know what else to do.
the hubs says.. "maybe since you've lost so much, so fast.. it is just taking longer now".
he's kinda smart like that sometimes.

so
this week.
I'm desperate.
I'm going to have a protein shake for breakfast.. with a piece of fruit.
A protein shake for lunch with a small salad.
and a good dinner.
some good healthy snacks too.

I really want to blame the new meds.. but they are supposed to help LOSE weight.. not gain it.

I need to get back into my weight training program.. (another suggestion from the hubster)

yoga twice a week isn't enough for me.
jogging four to five times a week isn't enough for me.

I need to be diligent and persistant with this.
I need to figure out why I can't lose this last 20ish pounds.. or hell.. even five would make me happy!

k.. here's a really crappy pic of me n my yoga teacher.. isn't she darling?
try not to get dizzy looking at it.
I may try to get another.. but that may be a while.. it was kinda weird asking the first time :)

down!

only half a pound..
but down is down!

I jogged last night. had to get my training in for Thanksgiving..
so me n the little one.. ok. she's not so little anymore.
hit the streets..
she had her light up scooter and I had my runnin shoes.
I jogged to the rec center and back.
only pausing for a couple quick drink breaks and a few light stops..
I mapquested..
it was 3.75 miles
each way!
so.. 7.5 miles
in the 45 degree weather.
it was amazing!
my legs are tight n sore today.
but I rocked it!

so.
I'm going with my little loss.
I'm expecting it will take a bit to adjust to my meds..
I am going to eat healthy and really watch my intake of what I NEED as opposed to what I WANT

Have a great week!

Oh.. I also found out my goal weight is actually a bit higher than I thought.
that doesn't seem so far away now!
17 pounds to be exact!

woot!

getting back on track

Literally!

I went to the rec center last night to do something.. whatever my coughing butt would allow..
and allllll the frekin machines were FULL!
it was sooo busy last night..
weird.
maybe everyone is getting a start on the Holiday workouts to prevent the gains?

so I hit the track
it is 1/9th of a mile...
I jogged 9 times

took a drink.. checked my timer
10.15
seriously?
woot!

I hit it again
mile 3 was 30.45!
I totally rocked it!!
had to stop for a cough attack and a drink

kept going
made it to mile 5.. that was 45 times around the track!! 50.15!!!

then I had to stop.
had to catch my breath.

but I felt goooood people! seriously good!
I just jogged 5 miles!
ok. not nonstop.
but I still did it!

I had a visit with my new dr yesterday too..
she is darling!
she has the cutest lil accent. I had to ask her where she was from.
Her family is from Ireland. She grew up in Zimbabwe. Talk about awesome!
she pretty much confirmed the PCOS diagnosis. She asked if I wanted to ask my ob about it.. I said I felt more comfortable with her.. since she has all my info from forever...
she started me on Metformin and Spironolactone.
also.. cut my blood pressure meds in half!
woohoo!

so.. lets see if this helps me lose the belly fat and get back on the right track.
cuz between me and you.. I am tired of shaving my facial hair like a man!
eek.. I said that out loud huh?
now you know my secret.

Have a great day!

Staying the same

in spite of being sick.. ugh!
I hardly got any workouts in last week..
it's really hard to run when you can't breathe..


but I stayed the same.
I'm ok with that

I made sure I packed lots of good food today.
carrots, greek yogurt, cottage cheese.. fruit... mmmmm

we had the chance to get some tickets to "party" with the Cullens! squeeee!!!
it was 6 a.m. and freeeeezing!
but we got the tickets!!

 my hubby loves me!

so this week.. I still can't breathe..
but I am going to do a 10k on Thanksgiving, so have to train for that!
I am going to focus on getting my eating back under control..
no more "well.. I ran three miles, so I can have that cookie"
nope!

day one

I have officially decided,, yet again.. that I am rebooting my ww's plan..
I have been mushy about needing to "start fresh"
I know.. but this time I am serious..

how many times have I said that?
too many to count.
this time it will stick.

I want so bad to be done by the end of the year.
done with losing weight
done with being jealous of all those who can lose and do it so easily
done with kicking myself for staying the same or even gaining every week
done with not loving myself enough to be a big girl and get my mind in it once and for all!

so
I'm taking my materials out tonight and actually reading them
and actually applying it
every day
all day
no more excuses and letting myself off the hook

I have 25ish pounds to go and goddess knows I am going to do it!

I will be tracking and planning and posting it all here

so get ready to be bombarded with me :)

too much going on!

I always forget to update you guys!
 I am so sorry..

I am still working hard, but forget to bloggy about it

I skipped weight watchers Saturday but for a good reason
my hubs went to the gym with me for an early morning workout!
even after drinking and hanging with the guys the night before :)
what a trooper

we had to make it an early workout because the rec center closed early for a Halloween party.
of course we dressed up!

Can I tell ya how stoked I am to see COLLARBONES???!!!

the creepyness on the left is the hubster

the teenagers.. the middle one is mine!

 creepy cookie time!

us as skellies..

the little ones were off as soon as we got in the door and didn't see em till it was time to go.. so I didn't get any pics of them lol

but this week for my little black skirt challenge.. I am focusing on water. and taking my vitamins. and my thyroid meds.
every day!

100 posts!! and my thyroid

This is my 100th post people!
I need to have a party!!!

Maybe a giveaway?

I'll round up sumthin...

I got a call from my dr.. my last bloodwork showed my thyroid is low.. again..
ugh!

I prolly shouldn't have taken myself off my medication a while ago..
but I forgot to take em..
and my tests have been good for a year or so..
I figured I didn't need them anymore..

WRONG

so.. I get to pick up a new script this week.. and get back on my synthroid.
yay. (that's a sarchastic yay btw)

who knows.. maybe it will help me reach my goal.

I am also wearing this super sexy heart monitor for a couple more hours.
just to check in why I'm having palpitations.
and go figure.. I don't feel them.
just like when you take your car to a mechanic cuz it's making a noise.
pfft

eh well..
whatdoyado?

roll with it!

so..
I'll be back in a bit with maybe a giveaway!

a quickie

I'm going to a new yoga class..
it's tai-chi yoga..
I am soooo excited..
and better yet..
I'm bringing three teenagers with me!
they love coming to yoga with me..

I am feeling bloated and icky this last week..
not sure why..
maybe too many veggies making me "gassy"?

this saturday I am doing the Breast Cancer walk that is supposed to be huge here.. of course.. I signed my girls up too.. good thing it's just a walk.. my little one barely made it through her 5k for school lol

then.. next Sunday..
get this!
We are all dressing up like Zombies and I am running an Undead 5k and they are walking an Undead mile!
how sweet is that!

I will of course, take lots of pics!

I am not giving up people!
my food tracking and my body may not be cooperating.. but I will not stop!

I also have to share a lil moment I had with the hubsters..
he told me he was kind of getting nervous about me losing all this weight..
that I am becoming "hot" again and that makes him somewhat scared I am going to, idk.. leave him..
well..
so not true!
I told him, honestly, that I am doing this for ME!
and that is so true..
so
yep.
I said it out loud.
I am doing this for ME!

little black skirt challenge check in

well. I know.
I've been mia this week. er. last week.
but I've been BUSY man!

I've been logging my miles..33.15 miles to be exact.. mostly running..but not too shabby eh?

I lost three of the five pounds I gained the week before.. yay!

so now.. only 4.2 to go to get my 30# loss.. then another 20#'s and I will be a lifetime member of weight watchers.. I'm so close!
not really.. but definately closer than I was when I started..

so.. I made my goal this week to follow my weight watchers plan exactly. To get all my protein and "right" carbs in for Body for life..

me and the hubs made a compromise..
I will stay home with him one night a week. No scrapbooking, no writing, no working out. for one night.
and he will go to the gym with me one day a week..

what a deal huh?
I'd love for him to see how great it feels to get your body going and how much energy he can have.. and just feel better!

on a roll!

Day four is here!
I know right?

I've stuck with it..

I think dinner is the hardest part of my planning..
during the day is easy peasy... I bring my food.. I grab what I have here..
then.. at home..
there are more choices..
making the fam dinner..
their yummy tacos, pizza n bbq chicken...

I am not going to change what I do.. just how I think about it.
it is, after all,
just food.

so last night I had a small baked potato with cottage cheese n salsa on top..
seriously..
it was gooooood..
I was stuffed after eating it. maybe just half of one next time?
usually this would just be a "side" to my huge meal..
but nope..
it was more than plenty..
rockin..
I did my lower body workout yesterday..
which was
 quads:
leg presses
12-20   (first # is reps..second is weight)
10-30
8-30
6-30
leg extensions
12-50

hamstrings:
Lying leg curls
12-40
10-50
8-50
6-50
dumbbell lunges
12-30

calves:
Seated calf raises
12-15
10-20
8-20
6-20
standing leg raises
12

abs..
floor crunches..50+
oblique crunches 50
this is more than recommended.. but I just had to..


today's plan..

protein smoothie w/ powder, a few raspberries, a couple peach slices, ice, water.. 5ww's p+

ff cottage cheese w/ lettuce n tomato 2ww's p+

prolly another protein drink.. I don't remember what's in my lunch box...
some mixed greens w/balsamic vinegar

I really need to get a plan the night before going.. asap..
6 am is too early to be thinking about protein n carbs.. lol..

cardio is all I have to do today for workouts..
I am going to try the HIIT (High Intensity Interval Training).. but there is another yoga class tonight.. I might try it too.. I really need my yoga!

anyone have any suggestions for protein? Oh yeah.. no meat allowed..

Day one

and
it begins

day one
of
Body for Life

last night I had my super supportive hubster take "before" pics

and the good man that he is
didn't say a word
not one
word
about my side belly
or my double chins
or my donut rolls
or
anything for that matter..

he even asked that I take
"before" pics of him

"before" what? I have no clue..
he isn't a "dieter"
he's a couch sitter..
whatevs..

he's happy with his sports watching while I'm sweatin at the gym..
we make it work.

so..
I got my pics..
I got some good foods..

here's my plan for today..

Protein shake w/ fruit
orange

peach
slice of 45 cal whole wheat bread w/ nutella! mmmm I can't wait to try this stuff..

cottage cheese/ grapes


plum
protein bar

prolly a big salad for dinner..

going to start the workout plan today too..
I'm not sure how I'm going to do this since I already workout lots..
I'm not thinking of changing too much.. just focus more on what the plan says needs to be done.. I'll finally have a schedule :)

Day 1

Upper Body Training

Chest/Shoulders/Triceps/Back/Biceps

Day 1

Upper Body Training

Chest/Shoulders/Triceps/Back/Biceps

upper body is today.. which rocks.. since I did the evil leg machines at the gym Friday.. and still sore in hidden special places today..

go me!

as for the slimmer this summer challenge.. I'm still here.. still working!
woot!

today's plan

I am a wee bit sore from my 5k last night.. but I totally rocked it!
the hubs and the kidlets came to support me..and that meant everything!
I finished first.. can you believe it?
I know it wasn't a race, but it was the best feeling evah to be first at something!
I jogged most of the time.. and slowed to catch my breath a few times.. but didn't stop.. once!

I finished in 36 minutes.. seriously!

so.. today's plan..

a bowl of the new Fiber one 80 calorie cereal.. which is sooooo yummy btw.. 4 p+ with milk
a lean cuisine pizza.. the one with tomatoes.. soooo good.. 8p+
some celery with ff cream cheese 2p+
and something nummy for dinner..maybe grill some veggies
then hit the gym tonight.. I missed the stairmaster last night.. due to me forgetting that I signed up for a 5k.. but it was good.

Have a great day!

new week, kinda bummed.. moving on

so.. I tried so hard to win a Mytrak from Fitblogger.. the last 12 weeks, I only missed two weeks.. but maybe those were my chances.. idk..
bummer.

oh well.. I will just have to save up the money to get some sort of tracking device so I know exactly what my exercise is doing for me. I don't like guessing..

yeah. I'm cranky today.
between the hubs staying up till after midnight, and the neighbors damn dogs barking all night.. I'm tired and not very happy.
I can be bitchy once in a while, can't I?

mkay.
so..

I lost 2.2 pounds last week.
whew!
It was hard..
I worked my arse off in the gym..I got up to 4 miles jogging (sweating like hell while doing it)
yup.. I'm kinda proud of that..
I used to despise running.
I hated it like I hate mushrooms.. seriously..

now..
I love it!
I can't just walk any more.
I have to run

:)

so..
this week..
weight watchers suggested we start "listening" to our bodies.
actually listening.
what is it saying?

That's going to be my goal for the week.

slimmer this summer week 4 I am going to continue to get my bazillion ounces of water.. I am so used to it now, it's like I feel naked without my water bottle full and ready to drink up..

plus size bloggers bye bye bootie challenge.. I am down a total of 6 pounds!
woohoo!! I am halfway there.. seriously.. I'm rocking this bitch! k. I need to stay on track and not let it go to my head and think I can slack.

I am going to listen to my body. Take my time eating. Listen for that "sigh" of satisfied-ness. yanno.. the one that your body gives when it's happy? listen for it..you'll know.
I am only going to eat what actually tastes good. I remember eating those processed candy bars, the greasy chips.. and only feeling icky after eating them.
this week at least, I am going to try to remember how I felt after eating crap.
sticking to natural and healthy foods is my goal.

okey dokey
off to start Monday

whoop! whoop!

I Lost FOUR pounds last week kids!
seriously
F O U R!
saweet huh?

so.. all I basically did, was..
eat waaaay more fruits n veggies..
ate NO meat!
none
drank lots of water..
buckets.
got my workout on.. lots!

it was pretty easy.
I am totally digging this vegetarian thing..
this week..
we'll see what happens next Weigh in..
but for now..
I'm basking in the "down four pounds glow"
:)
yesterday was a great day
I took the teenager to Yoga.. we both did great! she is totally lovin it..
then we came home.. I cooked an early dinner for the fam.. they had turkey.. I had mashed potatoes and pasta salad..
after that, it was still early.. so me n the teenager decided we'd go for a jog/bike ride. My bike is broken.. so I jogged, she rode.
I made it the usual four+ miles. jogging most of the way.. even though it was fuggin hot!.. I had to shower again when we got home..
feelin goood!

so..
my challenges for the week are:

Fitblogger.. I am soooo dying to get one of these Mytraks... seriously..
I am going to stick to the "no meat" plan.. since I like it.. but find more ways to get protein. I have beans. that's it.. so.. my goal for the week.. get protein!
slimmer-this-summer-week-2 I am going to continue to work on my water intake. I know I need more. I just have a hard time putting my Diet Dr Pepper's down man!
Plus Size Bloggers bye bye bootie challenge.. to lose 15 pounds in 12 weeks.. I am almost a third of the way there! woohoo!!

I hope I can stick to this weight loss. I always lose, then gain... I just want to find a way to lose every week. even if just a lil.. yanno?
I have about 30 pounds to go! much better than 80 I think..
yeah.. I've lost almost exactly 50 pounds since the beginning of last year..
go me

challenges for this week..

I am still on board for the twelve week challenges @ Fitblogger wk 6

I have usually done exercise challenges.. but since I am already on a pretty good schedule with that..
 I have decided to challenge myself not to have sweets this week..
I am addicted to sweets..
so this will be a hard one..
but I need to do it.
they sometimes send me on an eating spree.. so I totally need to abandon my sweet treats..

and it's only for a week, right?

I am down another 2.2 pounds at Saturday's weigh in..
now I am get this....

.4 away from 10% woot woot!

I'm sooo gonna get my keychain!!

Then next week.. is the 5k..

after the crankypants Mother's day I had.. I need something to look forward to..