whew!

I have been absent again.
but for a good reason this time.

my youngest daughter had surgery last week.
her growth plate was weak in her hip so her femur basically slipped off or something. not sure the exact wording or how it all works...
they put a screw in to hold it in place to keep it from getting worse

she did really well.. hardly had any pain. the only thing is she can't put any weight on it for four weeks.
that is forever!
especially for an 11 year old.
she's on crutches.
I'm the servant
not kidding
she has had me at her disposal 24/7 since last Tuesday.
I'm exhausted!
but I don't want to take the chance of her falling and having another surgery.
she will have to have more in the future though..

but this mommy's tired!

I did pretty well over the holiday break though.
I did eat lots of goodies and treats, but I also got a few workouts in.
haven't managed to gain so far..
*crossing my fingers*

I talked to my ww's leader last weigh in though..and she suggested I switch it up a bit.
be more in tune with the power foods.
look for more ways to change up my eating so maybe I can get the losing going again.
I have been stalled for a loooong time and nothing is working!

maybe some more classes at the rec center?
I'll try it!
I am so close though.. It's depressing!

I did buy skinny jeans this weekend.. for the first time evah!
the teenager, the little one and most importantly.. the hubs.. say they look hot on me!
so.. I'll go with it..

I got some clothes that fit finally too! I feel great.. other than being totally exhausted..
but I decided I have to really do this for me. honestly and wholeheartedly.
I just hope I have the willpower to do it.

so.. I will be examining my getting started guide. I will be reading my pocket guide front to back.
I will make sure to track everything I put in my mouth.. every exercise I accomplish.

let's do this!

stayin the same is not ok

September 10 I weighed 157.2
Saturday I weighed 157.8
Obviously the week of the "yogurt diet" didn't work. so I decided it's not for me. It didn't seem healthy for me.

I have stayed the same or gained and lost the same two-3 pounds since then.
I am not making progress.

I am asking myself why.
Am I really trying?
no.
I can honestly answer that with a NO.
Then I have to wonder, well why the hell not?!

I NEED to lose weight.
I WANT to lose weight.
I KNOW HOW to lose weight.

so what is stopping me?
myself of course.
no one else.
nothing else.
just me.

We got all new materials at Weight Watchers this weekend.
I am going to study them.
I am going to learn them.
I am going to live them.

Another member reached their goal weight and I want to be that person!
I neeeeed to be that person.

I know those cookies or treats aren't as good as they seem.
Junk food really isn't as yummy as it looks.
I need to feed my body the right way.
I need to fuel it for health and strength.

I know my battle is all mental.
I just need to master that mentality. I need to follow my Weight Watchers plan and just keep sticking it out.
it will happen!

Back down!

whew!
I am now back down to pre-thxsgiving weight.. yay!

weird how my body will gain and lose the same weight week after week.. 157.8. This is a total so far of 27.2 pounds lost with weight watchers.  I have 16ish to reach my lifetime goal. Woot!


I decided I needed to give myself a boost..

I am going to follow the yoplait two week tune up

I know this is a very restrictive plan. but it really isn't much worse than I've been doing.
I am adding more dairy, that's a plus.
I figured it fits in very well with my weight watchers plan.
and now that my points are lower, even better!

I've stocked up and planned my week. Well.. My two weeks.
I know "crash diets' aren't good for us.
but I need a bump, and even if it's just mental, to break me of the horrible habits I have, I am doing it!

my plan for today.

Monday, December 05, 2011

Morning
1  serving(s) nature valley granola bars	5
1  serving(s) Delights Parfait ® Chocolate raspberry yogurt	3
1/2 cup(s) strawberries	0
Subtotal	8
Midday
1  cup(s) Multi-grain cheerios®	3
6  oz Light 'n Fit nonfat vanilla yogurt	2
3  small clementine(s)	0
Subtotal	5
Evening
No entries for this meal time.
Subtotal	0
Anytime
2  Tbsp fat-free ranch salad dressing	1
1  cup(s) fresh radish(es)	0
1/2 medium green pepper(s)	0
1  cup(s) cucumber(s)	0
Subtotal	1
Food PointsPlus values total used	14
Food PointsPlus values remaining	12
Activity
No entries for activity.
Activity PointsPlus values earned	0
Check off these important items daily:

I haven't added dinner yet. since I don't know what I'll have yet.. but I have room for more snacks if needed, although this seems like enough for me.. we'll see!

so.. here's to getting closer to my goal and NOT gaining again!!

Oh.. and My goal for this week is: NO diet sodas.. Ok. I don't think I can do NONE.. but I am definately cutting waaay back!!. I'm switching to tea and water.. and zero cal powerades.. :)

forgot to share

I totally forgot to share my 10k info..

I ran a 10k on thanksgiving,..
I finished!
I WASN'T last!

I finished in 1:07.. not to bad for a chubby mama, eh?

here's before

during.. the couple times I slowed to catch a breath..

and after!

I am so doing this again next year!