unlucky me?

I feel like it today.
the unluckiest person.. evah!

not really. but life has a way of getting me down sometimes.

I am again entering the fitblogger challenge. at first I wanted to win the Mytrak. sooo bad. Ok. well I still do. and have entered every week save the two my dad passed..
But seriously.. I have been a good girl, haven't I? don't I deserve to win. something?

k..
whinefest over.

back to life.
I made it to the gym two days in a row.
Yoga then an elliptical stint.
I felt great!

Yesterday..
a 40 minute jog. Where I jogged-the-whole-time!
woot!!

fantabulous!

I am working on getting back on track this week.
I managed to gain almost three pounds back in the last two weeks.
I've given myself a break.. Weight Watcher's has given me a break.

Now.. it's time to get myself back.

a plan..

I am going to just hop back into my old routine.
my two-a-days..
a short workout during work at the gym..

then a longer more intense workout at the gym after. or.. sometimes before dinner..

I got tons of fruit and veggies.. I spent half an hour or so last night cutting them all up and getting them "grab ready"

so..
I'm prepared to do well this week.

for the most part, dad's stuff is taken care of.
The apartment is cleaned out.
just have the few little boxes of items to sort and mail.

not bad.

so..

here's to a great week!

exhausted

I have been totally wiped out this whole week. last week too..
understandable?

I feel like I've been whining alot.
I need to get myself back into life.
no more excuses.
I feel like crap.
I eat crap.
my mind and body have shut down.
I need to get them going again.
now!

so.. I will get back to the gym every night
life throws us shit
we have to be ready to throw it back

I think I am ready.

I have made sure I drank tons of water this week.
yay.

I did make it to get a short.. 30 minute jog/walk a couple nights ago.
I cried.
while jogging
yup.
couldn't help it.
gym time is my thinking time
and it was fuggin hard
I didn't want to think
but I had to
so I cried.
and I'm sure I scared a few of the other treadmill users around me
but yanno what?
I don't care

they have no idea what I'm dealing with.
I don't know what they are dealing with
and it's ok
:)

so..
back to life I go

wish me luck..
I'm gonna need it!

coming back.. slowly

I am slowly coming back to life.
if you didn't know.. and I just thought.. well.. how would you know?
duh!

My dad passed away last weekend. He had been sick for a while, but it was unexpected.
it's been a rough week and I have not slept in days. I have got a lot of my laundry done though.. and my house is kinda clean :)
but with the stress of all that.. I was the one basically taking care of him.. since I was the closest..
My sister flew in for a few days.. we planned the family funeralish thingy.. and then all the stress of cleaning his apartment. going through his things.. that was hard. still is.
I have not made it to the gym.. well.. one time.. for a minute on Friday.. and it felt weird. I don't think I was mentally ready. or physically.
I haven't ate right.
at all.
but I did check in at my Weight Watchers office Saturday.
I only managed to gain one pound. not too bad when I feel like I've gained five, at least..

so.. I'm trying to get back to life. since it does go on.
please be patient with me.. I need it.

I think I will just work on getting my water in this week.. I am still working on the fitblogger challenge.. I missed some last week.. but it's a new week.. I am aiming for 100 ounces a day.. yay for crystal light!
here goes..

Thanks!

vegan or vegetarian?

so.. I've been considering this lately..

should I try a Vegetarian or Vegan diet for the next few weeks..
just to see if it will help my body?

lemme know if you have any great ideas...

Die Fat or get Tough Tuesdays

woot.

the first amazing book club post.

Im in a book club?
yup

I rock.

I am addicted to food.

I'm an addict

that's the first step, right?

so.. I did.

and I found.....

I eat when I'm bored.
I eat when I'm tired.

I eat because it's just a habit

I overeat because I can

I choose the wrong foods because I have no willpower.
there is a difference in "hungry" and "im so hungry I'll eat the next thing that falls in my face"
and it's ok to be hungry.
it really is.


I could go on.
but this is getting depressing.

seriously.
Every day
there is no more "trying"
no more half-assed dieting.. or "lifestyling" as they call it.

Thanks Kirsten.. you hot ass you..

challenges for this week..

I am still on board for the twelve week challenges @ Fitblogger wk 6

I have usually done exercise challenges.. but since I am already on a pretty good schedule with that..
 I have decided to challenge myself not to have sweets this week..
I am addicted to sweets..
so this will be a hard one..
but I need to do it.
they sometimes send me on an eating spree.. so I totally need to abandon my sweet treats..

and it's only for a week, right?

I am down another 2.2 pounds at Saturday's weigh in..
now I am get this....

.4 away from 10% woot woot!

I'm sooo gonna get my keychain!!

Then next week.. is the 5k..

after the crankypants Mother's day I had.. I need something to look forward to..

week 4 is done!

I just finished my final week 4 workout!
If you forgot what I've been doing.. go to

fitblogger weight training program
to check out the 12 week weight training program..

I've been working my arse off..
see?

I've been taking my lil sheets into the gym with me every time and recording what I've done.
It is amazing to see it on paper!

now.. on to weeks 5-8

more weight..less reps..
this is so doable!

um. YUM! and 16 weeks on Weight Watchers

I pick this up while shopping..

and

all I can say is..

mmmmmmm

chocolate..

in cereal?

yes!

add some skim milk,  a grapefruit.. and yummy 4 pp's bkfast :)

taa-daa

aaaand!!

I got a prize..

it really doesn't take much to amuse me.

the whole a d d and all..

shiny stuff

pink stuff

cute stuff

so..

this isn't pink (I sooo wish it was)

but I got the "stay and succeed charm" for my 16 weeks of sticking to the Weight Watchers plan

see?

 

now.. I just have to get that damn keyring thinabajig to put it on!

 

I will get a 5k charm in a couple weeks to go with it too!! yay me!!

 

see?

 

doesn't take much :)

copying a hot-ass friend

Kirsten.. the hot ass that she is..
reminded me that I signed up a while back for the most awesome "book club evah"
it's easy peasy
2-4 pages a week.
doable
unless ya forget.
uh hem

so.. we're off to start the first chapta
of
die fat or get tough

starting next week.. May 10th
is now going to be Tough Tuesdays with Kirsten.

it's gonna be a great learning experience
not to mention hot girls

ok seriously

first.
I did it!
I lost 15 #'s with WW's..

took 16 fuggin weeks.. but I did it..
I am 3.6 away from my 10% goal yay!


but I truly need, want, am beggin for some sort of monitoring device to keep track of me..

second..
I've been entering every week in
fitbloggers mytrak giveaway
I've been a good girl (sorta) in making sure I reach my goal every week.. which is jogging 15 miles a week..
so far I've done great.. I even did a 5k (on the treadmill) on Friday.. yay!

so.. to increase my chances of winning great stuff I'm also joining this lil cutey prior fat girl a-growing-relationship-and-a-challenge

in a two week challenge to see who can log the most miles..either walking, jogging, ellipticalling, etc..

eee!! I am so on!
because there is a chance to win a polar hrm..
uh hem..
I'm so whoring myself to win.
but
I
don't
care!

If I get in shape and have fun.. and adding to my competitive nature.. I'm in!

I'm sooo crossing my fingers that I now have two chances to win cool swag..

Have a great day!