UNCHANGED. AGAIN.

ok. seriously.
I know I'm not trying all that hard.
but no change?
at all?
pfft!
yes.
it is better than gaining.
but I need to LOSE weight. not keep it.
can someone just take it for me?
please?

pretty please?

fine.

this week.
I will focus on losing weight.
I haven't been all that focused on myself lately.
with buying the house. and getting ready for Halloween. and basketball games. and work.
my hair is falling out.
for reals.

I need to find myself again.
like inside.
and out.
cuz there's only one me.


so the challenge this week

make a conscious effort to control what you want your outcome to be.
whether it is to lose, maintain, eat better, exercise more.. etc..
pick one or two things to make a huge effort to work on.
and.
do it (them)

that's it.
easy peasy?

if it were.. we'd all be supermodels.

wanna see my soon to be kitchen?

 isn't it preeeetyyy?? :)
and just for fun.. the tree they included for us. cute huh?

No changes

I am sorry I haven't updated the challenge for the week..
I was so sick Friday I called in sick to work. I know. never happens.

just dizzy and nauseated all day.
it started Thursday night during a screening of Paranormal Activity 4 we got tickets too. maybe it was the butter on the popcorn. idk.

either way. I felt crappy.

but I had no changes in my weight. I guess that's good. no gains!

I got my Bountiful Baskets.. oooooh it had yummy stuff!!

lots of squashes.. I'm not exactly sure what to do with them. I've only ever had spaghetti squash..
what to do, what to do?

I know what to do with the pumpkins.. but the rest? no clue

I got kale.. pomegranates, pineapple, bananas, grapes, celery, tomatoes, some pear apple things.. and that big squashy thing back there.. lol

mmmm lots of smoothie goodies!

it was a great weekend..

we went with the drill team to see Thriller by local Odyssey Dance Theater.. it was awesome!

 my girls are the two on the right.. the youngest had to be in the pic lol

me n the hubs got to be in a pic for a change (left and right)

 the girls.. and a couple moms :)

we had a great time!

I wish I could have taken pics at the theater.. it was rockin with zomibes n monsters.. sooo cool!

we did get one pic with a zomb.. right before we went in.. it's a crappy pic lol

my breakfast today.. a smoothie :)

protein powder, banana, pineapple and half a pear. water and ice.. mmmmmm so good!

it's gone already lol

the skull cup behind it has a homemade coffee drink I made.. coffee, coconut milk and chocolate syrup. yumo!

enough with show n tell..

how is the challenge going for you??

I have been thinking of adding something new for this week..

we have: getting looooots of water, no snacking, unless it's fruit or veggies.. and now I think I need to add

dunn dunnn dunnnn

exercise!

that I already do pretty well..

but it has a twist.. of course!

do something you have never done.. or haven't done in a very long time.

try something new!

at least once this week

I may have a prize ready to go out to the best new exercise adventure!!

have fun and good luck!

CHALLENGE CHECK IN

how are you doing??

getting your water?

no snacking??

I'm sucking!

not as bad as usual, but still suckin lol

I am definately thinking about not snacking. I am making sure I am really hungry before I reach for the treat.. which has been.. oranges, grapes, celery with almond butter mmm etc..

so not too horrible.. but  not perfect.

I don't expect myself to be perfect. just to try.

just to be healthier.


it's been a busy week.. a friend passed, kids have games, dr appts.. we're getting closer to our home buying marathon of paper signing.. picking out blinds.. fencing.. on and on!!

pilates was tough last night.. so tough. but so worth it!
 I am up to a minute and a half on plank time! woohoo!!

keep going strong and enjoy your week!

weigh in!

dunnnn dunnnn dunnnn

I am down 1.5#'s

not horrible..
a loss is a loss, right?

I had to admit, I haven't been trying all that hard this week..
I've been getting my water in.. yeah. but everything else has kind of been thrown to the back of the room..

the kidlings have been keeping this mama busy..
one forgets things so I have to run her stuff..
one started basketball so we go to her games..
not to mention theres a football game tonight.. a big one! and the girls have been working super hard practicing for half time..so mama makes them dinner and takes it to them (a couple times lol)

so needless to say.. I have been neglecting my exercise and meal planning..

next week will be better.. I have the weekend to recoup and recover and move forward.

how did you do with the challenge?

I made sure I got a butt-load of water in every day.. ok. a few bladders full

ha!

so.. the challenge this week, er, next week?

will be to keep up with the water

well

because it's oooooh soo good for you

and

here's my major issue and the challenge.........

NO SNACKING BETWEEN MEALS

mkay

not really.

snacks are ok- IF- they are a fruit or veggie..

I have some sick obsession with chips and crackers.. and sweets.. they call to me. I need to shut them up once and for all!

my "clean eating" is back on baby!

so if you want to join in on this weeks challenge.. or any week.. add yourself to the linky bajiggy at the top ^

I am going to track every single thing I put in my body

I am going to post it.. so everyone knows what I am eating.

if that isn't motivation to eat "good stuff" IDK what is!

how embarrasing to post that I ate a cupcake or twinkie (even if I don't like em) if they are in my house.. I'll eat it!

are you ready for this???

bring it on!

oh yeah.. just sharing my new water bottle..

chocolate squares

I have a paleo recipe for you..

they are  chocolate coconut treats, squares, bars..whatever you want to call em :)

I love coconut. like. love.
and who doesn't love chocolate?
shh.. don't tell me.

this recipe sounded really yummy..
( found it on pinterest. I'm obsessed with pinterest. it's either working out. or pinteresting. yeah. I'm lame.)
and it was!
you have to get used to not having ultra sweet things..and kinda oily things..
but coconut oil is soooo good for you!

3/4 cup unsweetened coconut
1/2 cup ground almonds
1 tbsp coco powder

mix

add

4 tbsp coconut oil and 1 tbsp honey ( I think next time I'll add two tbsp honey)

put in pan and place in fridge..

then eat :)

just sharing my yumo salad I had for dinner last night..

it was a "whatever is in the fridge" kinda salad :)

are you getting all your water in???? I'm guzzling like no tomorrow! me n the potty are besties!

went to pilates last night. could barely lift my arms to make it home lol. that's how you know I rocked it!

friday's tracking example

Friday, October 5, 2012 Breakfast Calories Fat	Carbohydrates

Protein mcdonalds egg mcmuffin, egg and cheese no meat, 1 serving275122913 275122913

Lunch

CaloriesFatCarbohydratesProtein Cottage Cheese, 2% Milkfat, 1 cup (not packed)2034831 Salsa, 0.5 cup36082 Doritos, Baked, Nacho Cheesier, 1 oz1204212 Fruit, Kroger Lite Fruit Cocktail, 1/2 cup, 1 serving600140 42085135

Dinner

CaloriesFatCarbohydratesProtein Kraft grated parmesean cheese, 1 tsp10101 Avacado - 1 whole, 0.25 serving81841 Cauliflower, cooked, 1 cup (1" pieces)29152 120994

Snack

CaloriesFatCarbohydratesProtein None 814298952 1200 - 1550

1. 27 - 60

135 - 25260 - 136

Fats, 31.8%Fats, 30%

I did get a lot more carbs than Planned, but I am still "weaning myself off" lol
Water- 115 ounces! woot woot!
it always helps when I exercise. I go through a couple bottles at a time when working out :)

exercise:

MINUTES/

CALORIES BURNED

Stair Step Machine (including stair master, stair climber, stair stepper) 30/

225

Running or jogging: 5 mph (12 minutes per mile) 45/

45

0

I made a recipe I found in pinterest

yuuuuummmy!
Parmesan baked cauliflower

 warning: I dont measure.. lol. I guestimate

2ish cups cauliflower
2 tbsp Parmesan cheese
1 tsp parsley flakes
1 tsp garlic salt
1 tbsp oil
mix

place in pan

bake on 350 for about 20-30 minutes. until lightly golden

enjoy. I ate for dinner with some avocado mmmmmm

check out my goodies from my bountiful basket! everything I will eat! nothing scary this time :)

keep drinking your water!!

I think I'll call my challenge the 20 by the 20th challenge. My brain is tired

Let's get started!

I still haven't found a name for the challenge.. I will think about it over the weekend :)

I weighed myself this morning and I am up 10 pounds
yeah
I suck

that's what happens when you aren't paying attention and get lazy

sooooooo

today I am paying attention

the challenge for this week is to get all your water in.

my goal for my activity and such.. is 110 ounces of water

the potty and I will become great friends I'm sure

I am going to allow myself one diet soda, just for that wake me up in the a.m. but nothing more until I get all my 110 ounces of water in!

so if you want to join this weeks challenge.. post your goal and your progress on your blog and comment on mine. I will get you linked also :)

I will have a prize (to come soon) to whomever gets their water goal in and posts it.

again.. I have a link doohicky now at the top of my blog. you can join the fun!

anyone up for a challenge?

Starting Friday Oct 5th
I will be tracking all my food and exercise on Sparkpeople and posting it here. my username is sugarw5 if you want to add me as a friend and we can chat there too!
add me on facebook too!!
I have made a goal for myself to lose (or try to come close) twenty pounds by the Christmas holiday.
That gives me almost 12 weeks to do it.

I might be pushing it, but I have to push myself or I won't do it. I will just keep on the distructive path I am on now.

I do appreciate your comments my friends. I was hard on myself last post, but I had to say it out loud. I needed you to know what I'm dealing with and not sugar coat it :)
at least I know there are a couple people out there still reading my blog

so.
I will be tracking everything.
staying low carb-vegetarian-lots of paleo recipes.. which I will be posting also.

is there anyone out there that wants to join me?
maybe call it 20 by 12/20?

yeah that was lame
I will come up with something awesome by Friday. swear

I  will have weekly check in's, weigh in's, blog sharing, maybe some prizes etc.. it will be fun!

come on..
you know you want to!


**Update**
I added a link list to my sidebar.. you can add your blog there!!!!
yay!!! lets get this party started :)

I feel like a loser

and not in a good way
I've gained
I'm not saying how much. because I actually don't know.

I'm avoiding the scale.
like the plague.
seriously.

I can't even bring myself to turn it on.

I suck

I need to pull my head outta my arse

I know I said before I was going to do better.
well
I lied
to you
to myself
to my family

I am a failure

I have no excuses

none

I've ate crap
every day
I hate it
totally hate it
it really does taste like crap
I feel guilty for even eating it
but I continue to do so
why?

no clue!

just habit I suppose
and lazyness
I would love to blame my family
but I am the one doing the shopping

I am the one putting the shit in my own mouth

*sigh*

I feel fat
I feel like shit
I feel like a failure

I am going to slowly get back on track.
yep.
I said slowly
I can't expect myself to turn around overnight.
I didn't fall off my plan overnight.
it took a few days


life happens
I will deal
but I had to let you all know how much I suck
I am only hurting myself, I know, but I feel like I let you down too.
and that sucks big time!


but on a happy note..

me n the hubs celebrated our 16 year anniversary

yeah
I
know
16 years

 yeah
I am actually wearing a dress.. I had to go buy one because our date was to dress up and go out. it was a blast. we went to see Hotel Transylvania. yep. a cartoon. it rocked!

 he luvs me!

and our baby girl. her homecoming dress. isn't she darling?
yeah. I love to brag bout her.