and not in a good way
I'm not saying how much. because I actually don't know.
I'm avoiding the scale.
like the plague.
I can't even bring myself to turn it on.
I need to pull my head outta my arse
I know I said before I was going to do better.
to my family
I am a failure
I have no excuses
I've ate crap
I hate it
totally hate it
it really does taste like crap
I feel guilty for even eating it
but I continue to do so
just habit I suppose
I would love to blame my family
but I am the one doing the shopping
I am the one putting the shit in my own mouth
I feel fat
I feel like shit
I feel like a failure
I am going to slowly get back on track.
I said slowly
I can't expect myself to turn around overnight.
I didn't fall off my plan overnight.
it took a few days
I will deal
but I had to let you all know how much I suck
I am only hurting myself, I know, but I feel like I let you down too.
and that sucks big time!
but on a happy note..
me n the hubs celebrated our 16 year anniversary
I am actually wearing a dress.. I had to go buy one because our date was to dress up and go out. it was a blast. we went to see Hotel Transylvania. yep. a cartoon. it rocked!
and our baby girl. her homecoming dress. isn't she darling?
yeah. I love to brag bout her.