I've gained
I'm not saying how much. because I actually don't know.
I'm avoiding the scale.
like the plague.
seriously.
I can't even bring myself to turn it on.
I suck
I need to pull my head outta my arse
I know I said before I was going to do better.
well
I lied
to you
to myself
to my family
I am a failure
I have no excuses
none
I've ate crap
every day
I hate it
totally hate it
it really does taste like crap
I feel guilty for even eating it
but I continue to do so
why?
no clue!
just habit I suppose
and lazyness
I would love to blame my family
but I am the one doing the shopping
I am the one putting the shit in my own mouth
*sigh*
I feel fat
I feel like shit
I feel like a failure
I am going to slowly get back on track.
yep.
I said slowly
I can't expect myself to turn around overnight.
I didn't fall off my plan overnight.
it took a few days
life happens
I will deal
but I had to let you all know how much I suck
I am only hurting myself, I know, but I feel like I let you down too.
and that sucks big time!
but on a happy note..
me n the hubs celebrated our 16 year anniversary
yeah
I
know
16 years
I am actually wearing a dress.. I had to go buy one because our date was to dress up and go out. it was a blast. we went to see Hotel Transylvania. yep. a cartoon. it rocked!
and our baby girl. her homecoming dress. isn't she darling?
yeah. I love to brag bout her.
2 comments:
Ah, don't worry. I am about 9kg heavier right now than I was last year. It sucks, and I suppose I am to blame, but I know I can do that again, and I know you can do it as well. Be gentle with yourself. Would you talk like this to your daughter if she messed up with a project? I bet not.
You haven't let anyone down. Take a deep breath, get on the scale because today is a brand new day and tomorrow that scale could already be down.
Take it one small step at a time. You can do it.
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